Get Inspired by The Inspiring #1

Buat gue, butuh waktu yang lama untuk bisa produktif dan tekun. Ibarat membuat sebuah tulisan, gue harus melakukan banyak pengamatan untuk bisa 'merekonstruksi' diri. Gue suka menghabiskan waktu untuk mengetahui tentang diri gue sendiri. Since gue sadar kalo ternyata gue terlalu sering melakukan hal untuk orang lain daripada untuk diri gue sendiri. Sejak libur lebaran kemaren, gue punya waktu lebih untuk knowing inside and outside of me. Gue menghabiskan banyak waktu di rumah, browsing apa aja yang gue suka, cari-cari informasi tentang beasiswa, dll. Most of the time, I spent for YouTube. Yes, YouTube is my #1 helper to found out myself. As long as we know today, being YouTube-er is a famous and today main side job of people. Banyak banget YouTube-er keren dan cukup membuat gue terinspirasi to do something better based on a value. 

I have Top Three YouTube channel that I visited and watched to the most:

1. Gita Savitri Devi
2. Fathia Izzati
3. Divina Aulia

Three of them are successfully brainstormed me to have courage to do something more, with reasons: what we did today are things that will give impact for future. 

# Gita Savitri Devi

Gita Savitri Devi or people known as Gitasav. I better knowing her as a chemist, because people already known her as a Youtuber or social media influencer. She told everyone about her in the past, and who knows that today her name known by everyone else. She is an Introvert, just like me. But, she has a magical extrovert look. Her content in her Youtube channel had amazed me. Lets say the 'Beropini' segment. She gave people another point of view, and sometimes I felt like have same opinion like her. 'Tentang Jerman' segment was my favorite too. I got some information about Germany from those videos. I have a plan to continue my life in Germany soon, so I did much research about Germany to prepare it all. 

Gita is so productive, I think. She is so independent too. I don't know she in a person, but I see her in her video indeed. Every new videos she uploaded on her YouTube channel, I watched them! I was very excited to watched the video in my spare time (when there's a WiFi connection). I listened to her covered with her boyfriend too, and also their newest song, 'Seandainya'. Gita is my current role today.

# Fathia Izzati

People called her Cia. She looked like a fun, chic, confident, yet humble. She speaks English a lot, I love that. Her pronounce is the best Indonesian have I ever heard. I do love the way she covered song. The genres are so me. I wish I could sing like her. Sometimes she talk about whats happening in social media, socmed habit, haters, or anything else. I love the way she speak front of camera, the coolest thing ever. Sometimes her random video was cool too. Overall, yes she is COOL!

# Divina Aulia

I watched her video last week. She is an architecture student in Germany. Which we now that architecture students are cool busy as a student. What I like from her is she good at saving money, which I can't. She made a content 'Nikah on Budget', most of the contents are how to save money for her marriage with her husband. And, now I learn how to saved money, hope it work on me. In other side, her other content in YouTube were so meaningful about life. How she survived in Germany with her money everyday, things that makes me improve myself to doing more to get more! 

Those three wonderful youth are impacted me today. I learn so much by watched their video, read their blog, saw their photos in Instagram. Generally, it is how social media impact me in positive way. SocMed give us positive impact when we do positive in social media. May I'm not a social media influencer like them or other people, but I have learn so much from them, and get the positive impact, especially for my daily life, to build more open minded minds, to looking for brighter future, and consider that we can't run out from whats happening in this world :). 

So, hope Gita, Fathia, and Vina love to be featured in my infamous blog :)

#diary 1: Knowing myself as a Trash

do you ever find yourself in the situation like:

you are useless, means nothing, unknown

me, such in the situation like that.

i have a lot of things to do. but I did nothing simply because those reasons:

1. I don't like it
2. I don't want to do that
3. I hate that people

I do I want to do a good things in my life. But there are a lot whispers and bring me into laziness, careless, selfish, etc bad. 

When you need to thinking more critical but you ignore yourself to do that. What should I do at least to myself? 

I have a lot of STRENGTH but why should I live my life with my WEAKNESSES. I had a lot of dream before, why it being far not even closer. I lost my positive side. I lost my ambitious side. I lost my kindness. 

God, please bring me back to the right one. Even I have to being in the pressed situation, if it bring me to the right one, take me when I'm ready. 

I missed being an innocent kid, don't have any afraid of facing life tomorrow. Sometimes I' being a selfish person to find back myself. I lost my responsible side. I need my old me. I wanna live my dream to reach it forever. 

-dust.

About the Wooden, Rose, and Dust

Every time when I open my blog, I always change my domain whatever my heart wanted. Now, my heart want 'Wooden', 'Rose', and 'Dust' be my blog's name. I'm tryin' to describe, define, else, about the philosophy of three words I used. These three words had a super meaning-full for me, personally. As I told before, every single word come from my heart, and sometimes my mind. As a sensing personality, I used my feeling more than my logic. 

Wooden. Come from the word 'wood'. A strong materials, and have multiple use for everything in the world. Construction, furniture, even transportation could be made of wood. Mostly brown, hundred shades of brown. Wood tells you about a strong mind and super power effect to all elements in life. Woods are strong, no one can get the best wood easily. They have to wait for some year, and sometimes let the ancestry have it. Wood describe a hard work and patient.

Rose. Rose is kind of flower. Fame with red and white color, also have the color of blue, yellow and pink. Rose is an amazing flower. Have romantic side. You must be going to be happy when you get roses from someone you love the most. But in other side, rose also have a strength by their thorns. A beautiful thing also have a bad side. So does kind people, they also have bad side. But their goodness come first. 

Dust. Some people have perception that dust is a dirt thing. Actually yes its a dirt, but doesn't it exist first in this world than human. And we may bigger than a dust, but we are small like dust in this world. So, don't be an arrogant person. Cause you might be smaller, dirtier than a dust.

I know those written are weird but I just write what my hand want. 

Self Upgrading

Hello,

Senangnya punya waktu dan mood buat menulis lagi di blog. By the way, sebenernya masih bingung blog ini mau diisi konten yang seperti apa. Tapi ngga peduli lah toh gue juga nggatau ini ada yang baca apa ngga (hahaha). Cuma menuangkan rasa yang ada di otak buat nulis tentang 'Self Upgrading'. 

SELF UPGRADING 

Menurut gue self upgrading adalah saat kita mencari tahu dan mempelajari hal baru yang sebelumnya belum pernah kita coba atau nggak mau kita coba. Self upgrading buat gue sendiri adalah salah satu cara biar tetep up to date dan nggak ketinggalan tren yang cepet banget berubahnya. Jadi secara nggak langsung dengan self upgrading kita mengikuti perkembangan jaman yang mungkin dalam hitungan bulan atau tahun sudah jadi hal yang 'jadul'. Banyak banget hal baru yang gue pelajari di tahun 2016. Di 2016 gue belajar yang namanya video editing walaupun masih yang super basic banget! Tapi gue cukup puas dan (agak) bangga (dengan diri gue sendiri) dengan hasil yang sesuai dengan ekspektasi gue. Dari situ gue mulai suka videografi, hampir kemana-mana sebisa mungkin gue ngerekam apapun. Walaupun akhirnya harus ketemu titik bosen (lagi), tapi di awa 2017 kemaren, self upgrading gue kepake. Gue menjadi videografer untuk kegiatan pengamatan sosek di sebuah kegiatan eksplorasi di wilayah Garut. Yap. Karena pernah berusaha meng-Upgrade skill, gue ngga canggung megang kamera dan merekam pemandanga, kegiatan, wawancara, dll. Selain itu gue juga jadi ngerti tentang kamera dan fotografi, dan ya masih basic banget. Tapi seneng karena dulu juga sempet tertarik sama fotografi tapi baru ada kesempatan buat belajarnya sekarang, pas kuliah. Well, di 2016 banyak banget hal yang gue achieve lewat self upgrading. Di 2016 gue meng-upgrade diri gue dengan memberanikan diri ke luar negeri sendiri dan diintrograsi berkali-kali sama orang Imigrasi di Malaysia dan Singapura. Rasanya emang deg-degan tapi gue bisa buktiin gue bisa dan berani menghadapi orang-orang baru dan asing. 

List your own self upgrading. Sama seperti nulis target-target tahunan sih sebenernya tapi ii lebih spesifik aja karena ini hal yang bener-bener baru buat kita. For your information, pas nulis target-target gue nggapernah nulis taret waktunya kapan. Karena menurut gue nggapenting itu kapan kesampeannya yang penting harus tercapai! Karena gue percaya kalau Allah udah bilang terjadi, maka terjadilah (kun faya kun). Lakuin aja apapun sebisa lo, seadanya waktu, yang penting tercapai dan memuaskan. Dan satu lagi, YAKIN. Yakin bahwa semua keinginan lu akan menjadi nyata suatu saat nanti. Dan jangan berenti mikirin mimpi lu. Dan jangan lupa juga buat berusaha dan berdoa buat mimpi-mimpi itu. :):) 

AIESEC Global Citizen Program: Persatuan Kebajikan Orang-Orang Istimewa, Johor Bahru, Malaysia

Hai, akhirnya berhasil ngumpulin mood buat sharing tentang kegiatan yang aku ikutin sebulan lalu, yaitu program AIESEC Global Citizen. Sekilas tentang program ini, program ini merupakan wadah bagi kita yang memiliki ketertarikan di bidang sosial melalui projek-projek tentang pendidikan, lingkungan, kesehatan dan kewirausahaan. Kegiatan ini diwadahi oleh AIESEC, sebuah organisasi kepemudaan internasional yang bergerak dalam bidang kepemimpinan. AIESEC sendiri ada di hampir seluruh kampus di dunia. Pergerakannya yang sudah mendunia membuat aku tertarik untuk mendaftarkan diri di salah satu program AIESEC. Program ini dibuka setiap peralihan musim (setiap 3 bulan). Tetapi karena kuliah di IPB agak sulit untuk mengajukan izin saat perkuliahan, aku memilih untuk berangkat di liburan semester genap ini. Sistem pendaftarannya adalah mendaftar secara online, lalu akan di wawancara oleh AIESECer di kampus. Then wait for the result. Tidak memakan waktu lama untuk mengetahui apakah kita bisa melanjutkan ke step berikutnya atau tidak. Setelah resmi diterima, aku mendapatkan banyak pembekalan untuk perjalanan ke luar negeri, hingga akhirnya bisa berangkat ke Malaysia.

What Project You Choose?

Pada awalnya aku mendaftar di projek Soroptimst International Johor Bahru, yaitu sebuah organisasi sosial yang menaungi pendidikan bagi anak-anak usia sekolah dasar. Projeknya adalah untuk mengajar mereka Bahasa Inggris. Aku tertarik karena disana ada banyak anak-anak, dan mengajar Bahasa Inggris, dua hal yang aku suka ada disana. Lokasinya juga strategis dan dekat dengan pasar. Aku melakukan wawancara melalui Skype dengan AIESECer dari Universiti Teknologi Malaysia. Hasilnya pun langsung keluar beberapa jam setelah wawancara, dan aku diterima di projek ini. Excited. Very excited. Aku langsung mengurus semua yang aku butuhkan seperti paspor (karena belum pernah punya paspor sebelumnya) dan perintilan lainnya. Namun, di H-4 keberangkatan, AIESECer dari Malaysia memberi informasi bahwa NGO tersebut sedang masa peralihan pasca pergantian kepemimpinan, jadi mereka tidak bisa menerima volunteer untuk beberapa waktu. Karena nggak mungkin untuk menunda keberangkatan, singkat cerita aku pindah projek ke PKOOI (Persatuan Kebajikan Orang-Orang Istimewa). NGO (Non Government Organization) ini menaungi orang-orang 'istimewa' yang memiliki keterbelakangan mental. Disana aku harus membantu mereka melakukan olahraga di pagi hari, dan membuat kerajinan tangan di siang hari. 

While Paper-Crafting

Disana, aku tinggal bersama 18 penghuni, dan mereka semua memiliki keterbelakangan mental. Tapi beberapa dari mereka masih bisa melakukan tugas-tugas rumah tangga seperti menyapu, mencuci piring, membersihkan rumah, dan mengambil makan. Mereka terbilang sangat mandiri dan bertanggung jawab pada tugas mereka masing-masing. Selain itu, aku juga tinggal bersama teman sesama relawan dari London, namanya Anu. Dia adalah AIESECer di Nottingham University dan juga menjadi Exchange Participant (EP). Kami makan makanan yang sama dengan para penghuni disana. Mereka juga terlihat saling membantu satu sama lain. Bagai memiliki keluarga baru disana. Kebanyakan dari mereka sengaja dititipkan oleh keluarganya karena keluarga mereka tidak memiliki cukup waktu untuk merawat mereka. Awalnya aku sempet berpikir kalau mereka yang tinggal disana karena keluarganya ngga mampu dan ngga sanggup buat merawat mereka, But its all about willingness and chances. 

Been there for a while changes my mind till forever. I learn so much from those experience, chance, and my activities there. I'm feeling blessed with everything I have right now. Thanks God. Thanks parents. Thanks friends. Thanks AIESEC. 

Note: Aku pergi ke Malaysia sebenernya bulan Juli 2016. Tapi baru bisa menyelesaikan cerita pengalaman ini bulan Februari 2017. Hahaha.