#diary 1: Knowing myself as a Trash

do you ever find yourself in the situation like:

you are useless, means nothing, unknown

me, such in the situation like that.

i have a lot of things to do. but I did nothing simply because those reasons:

1. I don't like it
2. I don't want to do that
3. I hate that people

I do I want to do a good things in my life. But there are a lot whispers and bring me into laziness, careless, selfish, etc bad. 

When you need to thinking more critical but you ignore yourself to do that. What should I do at least to myself? 

I have a lot of STRENGTH but why should I live my life with my WEAKNESSES. I had a lot of dream before, why it being far not even closer. I lost my positive side. I lost my ambitious side. I lost my kindness. 

God, please bring me back to the right one. Even I have to being in the pressed situation, if it bring me to the right one, take me when I'm ready. 

I missed being an innocent kid, don't have any afraid of facing life tomorrow. Sometimes I' being a selfish person to find back myself. I lost my responsible side. I need my old me. I wanna live my dream to reach it forever. 

-dust.